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There's a very interesting little coincidence in my life, that when I was around twelve years old, while listening to the English tape as a good student who would always do even during vacation, I heard a sentence which was read by a gentle male voice: "Love is the answer to every question." Back then I was a rebellious teenager who believed herself to be quite inner-directed and hated those hypocritical love stuff, never read a romantic fiction and looked down upon those girls who were obsessed with them (I still look down on them now though), so when I saw this sentence, since it was quite different, in an indescribable way for the me then, from those love poems which disgusted me a lot, its tone was so firm and self-convincedly gentle that pushed me to think about it before denying it easily, even though after minutes of mildly hard thinking I still refused to accept it as something right, or better, still failed to understand it as an innocent teenager.

But I don't know why this sentence has been stored in me secretly since then deep beneath all of my memories written inside my mind by my life experience all these years, and jumped out these years later all of a sudden into my mind the moment I finally understood it all with burning tears with it becoming one of my lifetime beliefs. And it definitely still has nothing to do with the silly romantic stuff. How would that young child think of the present me though?

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